i had a dream last nite..
i dreamt of mi watchin others while they train... watchin mr teo shoutin at the top of his lungs at them... i feel so empty so helpless.. no one's noticin my presence.. no one's givin a damn abt me..
i still feel the emptiness now.. even after i woke up.. tis void has nv been completely filled ever since i gt myself injured nt once but twice due to soccer.. i din cherish the time i had durin sec sch.. alwaes bein an ignorant kid.. nv realise how diff its to recover from an injury n pick myself up agn..
i had a second chance when i entered poly.. lk i used to sae... attendin every trn for me is lk a kid gg TOY R' US... to me its so fun n happy.. i tot the void would be re-filled once agn... i thought.
sadly i gt injured agn at end of yr one... where my trn intensify after my body adapted to runnin competitively once more.. tis time its all over for me.. i torn my ACL.. a ligament inside my knee.. i could haf gone for the op.. i could haf strongly oppose to my dad's decision of nt gg for it.. i could haf... but i din... i juz fought for a while den gave in..
ever since then... i fall into a slump... which sums up the way im rite nw.. i wonder if i ever would pick myself up for the wae im has been a norm for the past 20 mths? hmms.
